The Posse, the Prayer, and the One-Dollar Night

First thing's first:

Savage Living in Oklahoma Check out this woman's blog cuz she was nice enough to mention mine on her page and was cool enough to put the first comment ever on my blog! There's some very interesting stuff to look at, other cool blogs she's found. Those are worth a look as well.

It Is Better To Light A Candle This is one of the links I found on her blog to another blog. It's purpose is so awesome that you should check this one out, too!

Very Full Weekend:
Now I have to tell you about my day weekend! Friday night I had an awesome bible study meeting in a chat room with IVCF people that was scheduled for 9pm. Strangely enough, no one knew how to start it so I finally figured it out. Once everyone joined and we got going, there were many different convorsations going on at once and it was quite confusing. Plus, there were other people IMing me so it was hard to follow along sometimes and respond fast enough to what people were saying. Then my friend, Matt, just sort of came in my front door without warning. Apparently he was meeting my sister, Kaylee, and my friend/her bf, Corey, at our house. Only they were both at Corey's house, not where they said they would be. So I was talking to him for a bit while he waiting for them. Then more friends randomly showed up! Chris and Ryan(aka Stumpy), along with Kay and Cor. So I saved the chat convo and said bye to IVCF peeps and hung out with my semi-posse(there's a huge group of my friends at home that we call the posse). So then they were all gonna leave for a bit, but I talked Stumpy into staying to play Dynasty Warriors4 with me until they got back. So we played that for a while. Then Chris and Matt came back and we hung out and talked for a couple hours. Then Stumpy started saying stuff like "Hey, is it a sin to have sex in a church confessional?" or "What if the priest was on the other side?" but Stumpy is wierd like that, even though he's just joking. Then I was like okay, that was fine for a little while but this is getting annoying, so I told him to stop, which of course made him want to keep talking just to tease me. So he covered my ears, like the wonderful friend he is, and talked as loud as he could. To counter his attack, I burried my face into the couch, ears still covered, and started making high pitch sounds so I couldn't hear him. It was funny, too, because my dog was there and had no idea what I was making all those noises for. Then Stumpy was asking me some questions about Adam and Eve and some other questions pertaining to the Bible, some of which I didn't really know, but he didn't bite my head off for not knowing or harass me about it. So overall it was a cool and random Friday night.

Saturday, I had to go the mall to bring my phone to the Verizon people because, after spilling Full Throttle Energy Drink on it at school about a month ago, it stopped working properly. Well, actually, it worked fine as long as I didn't turn it off, because one I tried to turn it back on it wouldn't unless I took the battery out and put it back in, or if I put the charging chord in.
So I asked my sister, Emily, if she wanted to go. I also had a gift card from Christmas so I figured we could do a bit of shopping. Later she aked if her boyfriend could come also (oh yea. she said yes btw). I said he could, but then she wanted me to call another friend to go so i wasn't left as a third wheel.
Though I didn't mind, she insisted, so I called my friend Lauren. She was busy so I called Chris, even though I know he doesn't like the mall we were going. He said okay. So we picked up Nick, Emy's bf, and then got Chris. When we got to Chris' house, my cousin Joe was there too (he's dating Chris' sister Catherine, who is also Emy's friend...confusing but we're all friends and friends with each other's sibblings and cousins... nevermind ^_^).
Anyway, we all ended up going to the mall, me, chris, em, and nick in my car, and joe and cat in joe's car. Chris and I went to the Verizon place first as the others wandered off to do their own thing. I told the lady what the problem was (the part about the energy drink didn't come up really...) and she put a new battery in it. I tested it just in case, turned it off and attempted to turn it back on. It still didn't work!!! So I told her and she had me leave my phone there for about an hour.
In the meantime, Chris and I went to FYE to look at cd's. We saw our friends, Dave and Rob, there, too!!! So everyone got big hugs from me! Yay! I ended up getting the new Barlow Girl album which has the acoustic version of "Never Alone" and is one of my favorite songs!!! WOO HOO!!! I also got DC Talk, Everclear, and Alien Ant Farm with the 3 for $20 stickers on them, so that was cool.
Then the four of us went to Radio Shack to look at stuff (well... i just wanted to play the keyboard really). Then we went to the pet store cuz I wanted to see the cute animals and look at all the cool stuff. Oh! and i found this squeeky mouse cat toy that was a lot louder than i thought it was going to be so when i squeezed it, i jumped. haha! Awwwwwwwe! Kitties! Bunnies! Doggies! Keeeeeeeeeyyyyy-UTE!!! Then Chris and I went to get my phone. Apparently there was a keypad problem. They ended up giving me a new phone! FOR FREE!!! Verizon is the coolest just for that! So then Chris and I left, while Emily and Nick said they'd get a ride home with Joe. I brought Chris home and then went back to my house.
___Okay... this was the best part of my Saturday besides getting a free phone. I went to my church in Meridan with my friend Wayne, where there was a big worship/prayer night for all the teenagers from the youth groups from other churches in the area. It was pretty cool that our church was hosting it. And it was awesome to see the worship leaders come together and have this one big worship band! My youth pastor's wife was on guitar and vocals, her sister was on keyboard and vocals, one guy as lead guitar(all acoustics btw) and lead vocals, another guy on bass, and another guy on this big drumset. They totally ROCKED, and we all stood and clapped and sang and jumped around for God! We just lifted so much praise to Him that night that it was like Aquire the Fire all over, only with a lot less people and a lot less hours. Then we heard the message of God through the youth leader from one of the other churches. It was very good and based on what the event was supposed to be about, worshiping God and praying from the heart through God's will. Something like that. And he had an interesting story about when he was a teenager, before he was even a Christian, and how God was looking out for him enough to save his life (great story, but maybe i'll write about it more in detail sometime).
So then we had a nice time of prayer individually, then in groups with people we didn't know. It was so cool to hear how much of the same page everyone was on in prayer and thoughts of issues today that we face as Christians. I'm glad I'm not alone when it comes to those things, like being pulled in the direction of culture and peer pressure and whatnot.
___so that was my Saturday!

Sunday I couldn't get to church cuz of all the sleet and icy roads. And considering it's a half hour drive, my dad probably would've said no. But as much as I had been looking forward to it, I did not want to risk getting into an accident. So I didn't do much Sunday (yesterday) except clean out my drawers that I'm taking back to school. I did happen to go bowling that night, though, when the roads were better. I went with Wayne, his sis Niobe(pronounced: Nye-oh-bee), my youth pastor Rob, and his wife Mariah, to bowling where it was $1 night! shoes for a dollar, soda for a dollar, and games for a dollar each! I don't think I've ever seen that many people there before!

So that was my weekend! I'm actually not expecting anyone to read this. I just like keeping a sort of record of times like these, full-of-fun weekends and stuff. If you did read this... why? J/k thank you for your time and caring! It means a lot! Well, I'm off to bed now. It's been a long weekend... Take care!

Peace and love!

The Funnest Dream Ever!

I had the coolest dream last night! Ok well... maybe it wasn't actually that cool but... I was having so much fun! I dreamt that I was back at school, and I was at the art school in the grassy area outside. And for some reason I had a long string of small, light blue balloons, and they were all attached some how so it looked like this blue bubbly-looking snake thing. The front end was attached to a short stick that I was holding. In the very last balloon there was a little jingle bell.
Awe! The whole thing was so cute and fun to look at! It was the awesomest, coolest, long blue jingling thing I ever saw!
So anyway! I was running all over the place with it, laughing and skipping and playing. It was sooooooooooooo FUN! It was like dancing and making happy little music where ever I went! And the sun was shining and it was warm outside and some of my friends looked to see what I was doing. And some of them asked why I was acting so ridiculous, and I just told them that it was so much fun and I couldn't stop. Man was that fun!
Yep! That was my dream! I hope I have it again! I don't think I've ever had that much fun in a dream before. I wonder if it means anything... If anyone who reads this has any idea about it, feel free to let me know what you think. Thanks! Oh yeah! And I'm interested to know if anyone else has ever had a fun or happy dream like this before. Ttyl guys!

Peace and love!

Things I Should Be Doing But...

I've been quite lazy recently.
Today I woke up after 1:00...in the afternoon! Not that I didn't need the sleep, butI had to skip work. I felt pretty bad about it too, but I would've felt so much sicker than I already did if I tried to go. And well, on top of that I didn't have the means of getting there (car).

Okay, so here's a list of things I want to get done before school starts again:
-clean room
-organize the plastic drawers I'll be bringing back with me
-go through the whole book of Colossians and take good notes
-organize some kind of lesson or series of ideas related to Colossians for Bible study next semester
-finish writing out that very important letter
-make a list of all things to pack and/or buy for school
-OH NO! STILL HAVE TO BUY MY BOOKS!!!

Wanna know how much of that I got done today?
You guessed it! I actually played Dynasty Warriors4 on PS2 most of the day. Got quite far too. Then the main guy on my side died and it was game over!

Grrr... darn those addicting video games! Man... and I had defeated so many enemy officers!
Oh, well! Better luck next time...and the time after that...and the time after that...!

Well, life is still confusing, but God is helping me one day at a time, whether I feel Him doing so or not! Thanks for stopping by everyone!
peace and love...

Better is one day, but not today

"A Friend loveth at all times..." -PROV 17:17

"If they have escaped the corruption of the world by knowing our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and are again entangled in it and overcome, they are worse off at the end than they were at the beginning. It would have been better for them not to have known the way of righteousness, than to have known it and then to turn their backs on the sacred command that was passed on to them." -2PE 2:20-21

"Therefore, dear friends, since you already know this, be on your guard so that you may not be carried away by the error of lawless men and fall from your secure position." -2PE 3:17



Why is life so confusing...? I hate what's been going on lately! All this guilt... all these feelings of sadness... I want to cry, but it hasn't hit hard enough yet I guess. Why do amazing people have to change so much? Not that they become bad people, just that they become more of the antagonist than a friend. *sigh...* On top of it, I couldn't even feel God today... (or yesterday now). I mean I know he's there, but I just felt really crappy today... I really need to stop getting pulled into these 3am convorsations. It's just slump I'll be in for a while or at least until school starts agian. Then I can get it off my chest, hopefully. Either way this is something that will leave a deep scar in my heart. I just pray that God will help it heal in time for next year.

I just want this feeling to go away... : (




Do not seek revenge or bear a grudge against one of your people, but love your neighbor as yourself.
-LEV 19:18

He who covers over an offense promotes love, but whoever repeats the matter separates close friends. -PROV 17:9

MAT 5:41 If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles. 42 Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.


Peace and love, kids...

A rocky start, but You are my strong tower!

Well, this is my first website where I can actually just write whatever I want. Thoughts, concerns, stories, anything! I almost wish I had started one earlier. A lot has happened since college started, and it seems most of my friends here have some kind of site where they post their thoughts and ideas. And I always find it interesting to read about how they are doing or what they've been thinking. So... I guess it's my turn to start this blog thingy. I'm usually not that great at updating stuff like this though, but we'll see how it goes.

In the beginning...
Hmmm... As of right now I am on winter break. So...Where should I start? Maybe just a summary on my school year thus far. College. Woo-hoo! Or maybe not... not the whole time. In the beginning things were a bit difficult with roommates and whatnot. Dorm life was a big change from home living, and on top of it, I had just be baptised about a week before hand. So I was sort of trying to stay close to God and not let little things bother me. But everything seemed to be a big deal in my suite with late party drinkers coming home and waking me up all the time. Things have settled down since then and I'm cool with my roommates now. Besides, as the semester progressed, I was in the dorm less and less, pulling all nighters in the studio or coming home really late, so I wasn't around enough to be bothered with drunk suitemates and their friends. Actually, even though we are all really different, I think there's something kind of neat about each of us because of it, and we're sort of like a little disfunctional family...

Anyway, so that was how my dorm life went. And of course, God provided me with the path to amazing friends! He blessed me with the greatest classmates, all of whom I am friends with, and people outside of my classes. One of my best friends lives in the double next to my room. We went to a Bible meeting one night and now are members of Intervarsity Christian Fellowship (IVCF). We met such awesome people there, and now Chelsea is dating one of the leaders, Craig. I love them to death! I have learned so much from them, about life with God, good faith, and good food, too! Praise GOD for helping me find a way to stay on the right track while I'm at school! The right track to stay near Him, no doubt. *sigh* I love God!

Yea so... toward the end of the semester, as finals approached, and as the work load increased to epic proportions, I continued to go to Bible study Friday nights and hang out with IVCF friends, using that as my time of rest and thanks to God for getting me through another week. I even went to see Narnia one night with Chelsea, Craig, Adam(Chels' cousin-he's mad cool), CJ, Dan, and Erik(or maybe it's Eric...). And other nights everyone would go to our dorm and we'd watch a movie or something. Like one time we watched a movie I had called A Girl With A Pearl Earring (after the famous painting by Vermer) cuz no one had anyhing else to watch I guess, or at least nothing no one had already seen. So we went to CJ's dorm to get a DVD player and came back to watch it our common room. It was fun! And there were other nights when we would just hang out and have tickle fights or play cards or whatever. And every Sunday morning we met up to go to Church. Saturdays and the rest of those Sundays were strictly all work for me though.

Unfortunately, in the middle of the semester I kind of stopped going to Bible study for a long time, and I stopped going to church. I felt guilty everytime, too. But work got the best of me and all I did was work, work, work. My schedule was something like this: (on monday and wednesday) 2D class from 9:00am-11:20am, then 10 minutes to get to the other side of campus for my 11:30 Art History class, then a break before my 2:00pm Drawing class to either sleep, eat, or work some more and only having time to do one of those things, then it was off to class from 2-4:20pm. Then I would go back to my dorm and sleep if i was too tired to do anything else, or work on english or art history papers. Then I would call up someone to go get dinner with me, usually my friend Miguel or Matej or Paul. Or sometimes Chelsea or Lauren (she's one of my best friends from home going to Uha for architecture, don't see her much though because I'm in the art school and our schedules don't work together much). Yea so, after food, I would pretty much go back to the dorm and pack up my studio stuff, portfolio or whateverI needed, and go to the studio for the rest of the night, working until at least 2 or 3 in the morning with Miguel and Matej, and a trip to Konover at some point for a sandwich. Then I'd go home (home being the dorm) and sleep for maybe 4 or 5 hours if i was lucky, depending on whether I had to take a shower or not, and in most cases, i did. And of course I can never sleep with brushing my teeth! Finally, I'd set my alarms so I had just enough time in the morning to get ready and go to my 9:00 3d studio class and start all over again (tuesdays and thursdays very similar routine).

So...yeah. I was pretty much obsessed with work, and probably still am, when I was at school. But I allowed in to become more important than God. Luckily, I realized that I couldn't keep killing myself with work and taking on all the pressure by myself. I thought that if I could just get all my work done first, then I would have time for God. But once I let God take over, I felt much more at ease about projects being finished on time and papers being written well enough to get the grades I needed, still being able to give my best effort. I made sure I went to Bible study every Friday night, and Church on Sundays. Hopefully, in this upcoming semester, I will be able to do all my work for Him and through Him. I will give him my best, and He will take care of me.

Oh yea! And it's a good thing I did start going to Bible study more, because God blessed me with an amazing young man (who I mentioned once before) named CJ. *blush* I like CJ...!

Wow... this is getting long, and there is so much to tell! Alright, well, this past weekend I went to visit Chelsea and Craig and I had a BLAST! We had good food, watched a movie at her cousin's house on Friday, slid around his kitchen floor with my socks, went to Chelsea's house, stayed up late and hung out, had cranberry juice waffles with a scoop of ice cream for breakfast, watched a movie, talked about stuff, played with her dog, slid around her kitchen floor with my socks, had dinner, went bowling, got gas, went to SuperWalmart(!!!) where I bought stuff for ice cream sundaes (lots of toppings!), took a shower and afterwards they said I smelled really good and started sniffing my hair and such, made sundaes, listened to good music the whole time, had awesome convorsations, awesome fun and laughter, and in the morning we had breasfast and went to church! But then i had to go home... : ( But it was all so much fun!

That night I went to my friend Dave's suprise party at Wooster's in Waterbury for pizza and stuff. Then we went to play pool! It was all fun, but I still miss school. I can't wait! January 22 seems so far away... Oh, and last night my Youth pastor and his wife came to my house for dinner. My dad cooked great food! It was fun! We talked and stuff and had dessert. It was kind of funny cuz my sisters were expecting two older people, but they are a very young couple, fresh out of college, as they put it. And they liked our dog, Ruby. haha it was quite a grand little time we all shared.

Ok, if you have read all this, God bless you! You must really care what I have to say, even though it's not that interesting... Well, I'm off to get ready for work! Let's see how often I update after this...

Peace and love!