Just so happens that my schedule is empty
But still there's no room for You
The time has come and gone
Things have come along that take me away from you
Don't take this the wrong way
You're so perfect
And everything tells me
You're so worth it
Spending time with You
Not a moment goes by that You're not by my side
Spending time with You
You're all that I want
Why's it so hard to do?
When we first met I remember I'd do anything for You
But as the years go by
I let my attentions slide
And I'm pulling away from You
Don't take this the wrong way
You're so perfect
And everything tells me
You're so worth it
Spending time with You
Not a moment goes by that
You're not by my side
Spending time with You
You're all that I want
Why's it so hard to do?
These are the lyrics from a Stellar Kart song. They may not be deep or profound, but I can relate to them. I think that is what I like the most about my favorite Christian bands. Not only are they clean songs to listen to, but they make it clear that Christians are not perfect. I know that I am far from perfect. I can try to be a good person, but if it is not for God, then there is something missing from my life. I go through each day with good intentions, but lately I have felt far away from God. And it hurts. I feel empty. Passionless.
This song does not speak to me as much as some songs do, but having listened to it a few moments ago, I came to the realization that I've been doing exactly what the song mentions. When I do have free time in my busy college schedule, I tend to do everything except spend time with the One person who created me, the One who holds the plans of my life. I don't know what happened to the girl who was once so on fire for God and was willing to go where ever He sent her, but I wish she would come back, even if just for a visit so that I might experience true joy of the heart again.
My roommate and I had started the year doing daily devotionals, but we eventually fell out of that routine. It's sad really. I feel like I'm just going through the motions, like back when I was Catholic (and I'm not downing Catholics; I just found a different path for my spiritual journey). Although, I still get more out of church now than I did back then. I dunno. I'm just meandering through the siritual flatlands right now.
Anyways... Stellar Kart. Cool band. Fun music. Yeah.
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I understand. I know how you feel. I too have been missing Him. I feel that the few moments I give up to Him for momentary prayers or a quick, "Thank you," when I've noticed His hand just isn't enough. If I may use us as an analogy, it's great to write you an email, send you a text message, give you a shout-out in my blog...but nothing compares to sitting down with you, one-on-one. Just the two of us to grow in each other. I miss my alone time with God. My sit-down-and-talk time. And I'm sure He misses it too. And yet, undeserving as I am, He continues to pour His love into my heart. He cares about me (and you) more than anyone will ever be able to. Show Him you care too. Sit with Him. Put everything else away. Even me. He's your first love, Alyssa. Put down the distractions.
Go to Him.
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